(circa 1998)  Between March 1998 and Dec 28 1998 I put in almost 3,000 hours working for GriefNet, Most of which was building, refining, researching, and monitoring KIDSAID.  You will get a whole different story there!  All the creativity and credit is given to 11 year old Elizabeth Lynn, oh so coincidentally.  I do not, and will not support that lie, and I do demand reasonable recognition for KIDSAID, as I gave up my whole summer (Alaska summers are very valuable), put my life on hold, put my own business site on hold, and committed myself 110% to KIDSAID.  I lost my own children, and I will never be able to be there for them.  I have lost 5 step children from two divorces.... KIDSAID was all I had in the form of contact.  KIDSAID was my only hope to really make a difference in the life of a kid who needed someone to care. 

Aside from that - my time with Grief Net started on what would have been my little girls' 4th birthday, on 4 Nov 97.  From then until Feb 98, I worked  designing memorials for Grief Net.  I had to pull out because they were giving me so many to do that I didn't have any time for myself and I was preparing to move.  In March of 98 GN's financial situation suddenly became a problem, so I volunteered to take the job of Visibility Director.... making sure they could be found.    When the initial ideas for KIDSAID were presented to me, and I was asked to take this on, I was only 3 months into learning how to build websites.  THIS is the second reason why KIDSAID means so much to me..... because I learned as I went along, and faced this challenge head on with every ounce of my heart and soul.

I built, monitored, and maintained KIDSAID, made sure the questions were answered within 48 hours, made sure everyone from the guestbook got a thank you,  in addition to other jobs at GriefNet for an average of 60 hours a week.  I started giving notice of their need to find someone else to be the Visibility Director once I got Grief Net stabalized on the search engines - the end part of July.  Come Sept....Oct....Nov.... I was still doing the job and there were no efforts made to find me a replacement.  The closer I got to the center workings of GN, the less I liked what I saw.  For months I felt as if I was being smothered by this (key word) volunteer job. 

 It truly broke my heart when I turned in my resignation.  I loved KIDSAID, it might have been that 11 year old kids' idea, but I birth'd it, nurtured it, fed it, cleaned it, dressed it, and was KIDSAID's primary care giver from day one.  I almost feel as if I lose another kid, like it got ripped away from my heart.  I'm sorry, once my own pain subsides and I can view it as merely a bad business deal, maybe then, but only then will I remove all of this extra information.

IMHO these GriefNet and KIDSAID are s'pose to be there for the poeple who need them, not for the ego's and personal gratification of the two at the center of GN's business.  Yes, bottomline, they are good places to go when you are greiving.  I cannot deny a little anger, a lot of heartache, and a little bitterness!  I am human too.  They worked me to burnout.  I Couldn't go on that way.  Although... I do OWN  the image copyrights to KIDSAID.