Well... it seemed like the thing to do.  Something is missing from my life, and it's tuff to meet new people when you're in fromt of a computer for most of your waking hours!

I was have been in a relationship for 2 years.  It was It's been downhill after since the first 6 months, but I'm loyal like that.  He's not a bad person, he just doesn't know himself or what he wants so I end up riding the 'first girlfriend yo-yo' ride with soemone 12 years my junior in years, and about 20 years my junior in life skills. (It ain't the years boy, it's the miles" Chris LeDoux) Regular break-ups, tantrums, pouting, the whole nine yards.... and followed by no make-ups, no progress, no hurdles behind us, only more of the same around the corner.  One way streets, double standards, and he's called the shots since day one.  Two years invested to end up getting the 'silent treatment' yet again, only last this time he didn't break the silence. 

I reached levels of patience and tolerance that I didn't know I was capable of, and received none of the same in return.  I have no ill feelings toward him, I wish him the best, I hold him near and dear to a piece of my heart that will remain with him no matter how sour he's become.  We all go through it (usually a little at a time through our teens... not all at once in our twenties) and it's just his turn to grow up. However, there were two people here, and those kind of manipulative charades could't can't go on forever.

So.... fair warning....I'm distrustful of dating, and jaded in general on the whole 'relationship' idea. Nothign personal - that's just where I'm at right now.

TLC - Damaged
I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time

[BRIDGE]
And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cos I don't want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (Ooh I think you should know I've been damaged)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged baby)
I'm falling in love (Falling in love with you baby, yeah)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through
Don't know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (And I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I'm kinda scared (But I'm scared with every touch)
Cos I don't want to lose you (Cos I don't want to lose you)
If you really really really care (If you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (Then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you, you)

My heart's at a low (low)
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (I think you should know)
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love (I'm falling in love)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged (I think you should know that)

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage (I'm so much to manage)
I think you should know that (I think you should know that)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged)
I'm falling in love (I love you so)
There's one disadvantage (I love you so)
I think you should know that I've been damaged

And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cos I don't want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you)

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (Ooh I think you should know I've been damaged)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged baby)
I'm falling in love (Falling in love with you baby, yeah)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged