He who wishes for growth, unwilling to work for it, will remain infantile and never grow. He who wishes for change, too lazy to reach for it, will be left behind still wishing. He who wishes for motivation, too lazy to strive for it, will grow stale and breed ignorance. 

Wish upon a star for the nostalgia in the innocence of believing in fairytales or for the romanticism it represents. Do not wish upon a star and think your life will, in reality, improve!!

Self sculpturing of any kind takes actual action.  Externally as well as internally. If you want to lose weight and get a buff bod, you can't set around on your fat ass, eating the same volumes of the same crap, talking about your new diet, intending to go to the gym, wishing you'd get thin, and making 101 excuses for why you're not actually doing anything, yet rewarding yourself for the six pounds you lost six months ago before you gained back ten.  No, you have to permanently change your bad habits, get off your ass, move, sweat, feel-the-burn, work at it, discipline yourself, and you have to do so consistently, repeatedly, and habitually. 

Why would internal remodeling be any different? Internal reconstruction is even harder (i think) because you have to believe in yourself, trust yourself, and push your own self forward; every day, all the time.

See, that's why I'm not fit, trim, and physically irresistible...(just kidding!) because I expend all of my actual efforts internally!! I am a survival goddess!  No really, I am... however that is a beauty only I can truly appreciate because these are qualities that serve only me in making myself someone I can accept and my own life one that I can live in.

We all have the ability to become whomever we want to be.  It is not easy.  It is not painless.   It is often embarrassing and humbling to achieve that level of honest with ourselves.  You have to permanently change your bad habits, get out of your pity pool, move, sweat, feel-the-burn, work at it, discipline yourself, and you have to do so consistently, repeatedly, and habitually (sound familiar?!). In the end however, the reward far outweighs the alternative.

I firmly believe that if/when you are looking to improve self, looking to improve your life, looking to improve your own understanding of self and life around you you will find enlightenment wherever you look.  If you are looking for inspiration; you will find it.  If you are looking for motivation; you will find it. 

Ultimately, all of these things come from within yourself; looking to outside sources should be a means of priming your own pump (per say), not seeking deliverance of that which you have to work at on your own. Albeit slight or expansive, every little bit is that much more than you had before, reiterates what you discovered before, or confirms that which you already knew.

Don't get me wrong, I fall back into my pity-pool occasionally, and I fall in the deep end, annually during a time of year that is very difficult for me.  It's a pattern.  If I give up, I will drown. Literally, if I ever give up, I will die; giving up on yourself is suicidal.  I have come close to giving up many times.  However recognizing my faults and being able to admit them, to myself most importantly, is just one step closer to finding the solution than if I lived in a world of denial. And doing all this side work on self gives me the tools I need to make it through to the next level of growth.

Any-who I embark on this venture every now and again and admitting that I often forget what I read last week, also following a pattern I have well established, i keep record.  IMO if I'm going to keep record of it anyway, why not slap it up in a website for easy access, and to share the wealth!

C'mon.... by now you should know that I record everything that means anything to me and everything i don't want to forget.  Why not this too?!